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I shld be studying Geog. But I have decided to take a break cuz I cant concentrate anymore. I’m hungryyyyyy. I wanna order sushi but my mom was lyk…. no. Nobody else is gonna eat it. SUSHI

Yesterday I went to Angel’s house n when I got back home I lazed around a lil n went to the gym till 2300. The cute boy who lives in 0116 namd Harry was there at 1700. DAMMIT I missd him. HAHAHHAHAHAHAH j/k. Not that I’m becoming some kind of stalker or anything. It’s just that I HAPPENED to see his name on the guestbook. Can’t help it right??!! Oh but I kindda found out he goes to SAS n he’s lyk my age… Or mayb 1 year older?? Hehehehhe….

I took a shower n surfed the net n talkd on MSN after gym. I went looking for D&G n Calvin Klein ads (Mark Wahlberg was so damn hot when he was young =p). I realize that their ads are kindda "suggestive" If you know what I mean… LOL. Like this:

  The other one’s kindda gay so I won’t put that one  up. LOL. Most of their ads are full of hot men!!! Wit perfect 6 pax n all. Whoa. LOL

I found a nice pic. Shows that u can still look stunning w/o all that beautiful, silky hair!!!

Well it isnt very clear.

Tried to enlarge it but it turns out weird n pixelld.

Ok so I bought this other book "Wild Swans:3 Daughters of China" by Jung Chang. It’s smthn about life in China during the Mao period. The Civil war, Cultural Revolution n stuff. Sounds interesting. I’ll start reading it after the Os.

But I havnt finishd "The Time Traveller’s Wife". I’ve kindda forgotten about it. I think i’ll have to reread it all over again. I think it’s supposed to be a romance kindda thing.

I really really Love this song. It’s sooooo deep.

Woman-Raheem DeVaughn

This is official right now in 4 minutes or less
We going to crown all of them right now
My momma your momma
Baby’s mommas mommas mommas
Wife
If you near a woman right now wherever you’re at just turn to em and say you are appreciated

I appreciate your smile (thank you)
I know how much it take to carry and birth a child (thank you)
And the way you play dumb even when we living real foul ( ooo thank ya)
And even as a single parent momma you still hold it down some how (thank you momma) making ends meet somehow (thank you momma)
I appreciate your strength (thank you)
How you never bite your lip to say what’s on your mind (thank you)
How you a lady in the streets and a freak when it’s bedroom time (thank you)
How you gon’ ride with me roll with me and tell me what’s yours is mine
Fellas, If you aint got one better search the world to find

Woman woman woman
Strong Woman woman woman
Grown Woman woman woman
Special Woman woman woman
Beautiful Woman woman woman
Strong Woman woman woman
Grown Woman woman woman
Special Woman woman woman

I appreciate your glow (Thank you)
And when you get angry with us the way that you let us know (thank you)
And i think it’s so cute when you get so emotional (thank you)
You know till you prove your point you just can’t let it go (ha ha)
But i like that though
I appreciate so much (thank you girl)
Like the I love you feeling girl when we touch (thank you girl)
Like there’s no you, no me, if there’s no us (thank ya)
And if she ever hears an urgency she’ll come in a rush (thank you)
To the rescue, man you better find you a

Woman woman woman (Get you one man)
Strong Woman woman woman (Ain’t nothing like making love)
Grown Woman woman woman
Special Woman woman woman
Beautiful Woman woman woman
Strong Woman woman woman (when i get weak i need a strong woman)
Grown Woman woman woman
Special Woman woman woman

She’s gotta be street smart and educated
Gotta good head on her shoulders
A sexy swagger with sex appeal
A grown woman hook up them home cook meals
A grown woman who’s confident
Better recognize one where the grown ones sit
And a grown woman knows how to tell you no
A grown woman knows when to let you go
You can have a big ol car and big ol house but next to God nothing else amounts to her

Oh n there’s this other song calld Baby Don’t go-Fabolous

I like this sentence:

"It‘s ok to lose your pride over someone you love, don’t lose someone you love tho over your pride"

Whoah today I was wearing my pink "I’m hot" top n someone in Cine I walkd past was lyk… "Yeah you’r hot" HAHAHAHAHAHHA

Well I get ppl telling me I’m fat, ppl telling me my body’s nice n all kinds of stuff. Doesnt matter that much anymore. I know I’m healthy.

It’s 2.35am n I cant sleep unless I share this.

My mom was kindda bothering me tonight cuz she kept telling me to go home. It happnd yesterday too n I askd her why but she just replied "Cuz evrybody’s doin it". That wasnt a good enough reason for me. N I can’t obey unless I understand n accept why I have to do it. I was really mad about it n I assumed things ’bout my mom that I shouldnt have.

When I got home, my mom explaind that I have to do it cuz it’s truly for my own good. She doesnt want me to get used to it n suffer later cuz I’ll find it hard adapt to changes in the future. Eventually, I’ll have to settle down. If I spend too much time outside, there’s higher probability that I might do smthn I’d regret. N I can’t keep goin home late forever.

It’s just lyk the amount of money your parents give you. If you’r used to spending a lot evry month, when you hav to work in the future n save up for your children n all, it’s gonna be hella difficult. My mom doesnt wanna see me cry. It’s true that all parents Love their children. But some Love them so much that they give evrything the child wants w/o thinking about the outcome/consequences.

Once, I wrote in an essay I sent to enter the college in San Francisco that I wanna be the calculative person my mom is. I kindda doubted that. But now Im sure I do n I don’t regret writing that down. My mom’s not weak. She’s strong, in her own way. That’s how a woman should be. N it’s amazing how our family can stay strong even tho my mom has to leave either her children or her husband to take care of either one of us. I Love my family more than ever. God has been blessing us so much.

I feel so blessd that God put me in this cuz I really know now that He’s still walking with me. N He’ll keep walking with me. Always. He’s blessd me in ways that I didnt understand or realize. I thought that He had left me after I left church. But he’s still taking care of me even tho I’m not faithful. I KNOW I’M A REAL BASTARD. God will never ever forsake me. How could I doubt that.

It’s so late but I feel like singing "Through it All".

And I sing to you Lord

A hymn of Love

For your faithfulness to me

I’m carried in everlasting arms

You’ll never let me go

Through it all

Beyonce performing in Jakarta on 1st Nov!!! Sadly I cant go cuz of bloody O lvls. DAMMIT. ARGHHHHHHHHHHH. I feel so annoyed

I kindda feel upset today for some reason

OH CRAP I just rememberd. I left my A Mathz txtbk in Angel’s house.

I was there the whole day, sitting on the sofa watchin her big bro play PS3. I was kindda scared the whole time he was playin FEAR. Mannnn the graphics r wicked.

My mom gave me a bit of a scare. She was just in bad mood cuz of my lil bros. I hate it when she nags n screams. Sigh. I know that I really Love my mom. I will take care of her but I can’t always be by her side. She has to realize that. I’ve got my own life n friends. She’s even said that when my bros n I are married, they still wanna live together forever. I don’t think that can happen.

Oh n I’m kindda disappointed cuz someone, lets name it B again. But this time a different person… B’s been backstabbin its best friend. But that happnd quite a long time ago, so mayb B’s changed… Mayb… Just mayb. Lets hope so. Cuz if not B’d lose a lot of respect from me.

N I just found out that my grandpa (Who’s in the right mind) doesnt know my bro’s name (Livia, if you’r reading this, you can laugh your ass off). It’s so ridiculous. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAH.

Mr Anthony calld me up today n talkd to me…

He said he expected a distinction frm me. But I turnd out to be far frm it. He said he was so unsure he had to check my name to see if it was the same girl. I’m disappointd wit myself too. I expected better since I scored an A2 for history in mid yrs. I really don’t know what happnd that day, so I couldnt really tell him what my mistake was; Sleeping too late??

Oh n I thought of other stupid reasons too: I took drugs, my bf just dumpd me. All that cliche.

Mannnn he really expected SOMETHING from me. He said in class I could answer his qns correctly n I do my work n tests well. So what went wrong??

I’m sorry, Mr Anthony.

You know what, mayb I’m stupid… Mayb I just ACT smart. I dunno. It’s possible. HAAHAHHAHA Oh n the "smell" fever is coming back

*screams*

Angel n Dewi n I were havin dinner at fish&co borders n there were a few teachers there. We were feeling kindda uneasy. But it’s all cool. LOL

Easy- Paula Deanda feat. Bow Wow

Ok now lets talk about how shallow men of our generation is.

I can’t deny it anymore. My mom’s right.

Men nowadays like to show off their girls n they like em thin, wit no muscles n fats n straight haird n gentle n shit. I’m lyk… WTH. The media n environment has poisoned their minds. All the thin Japanese girls shit. Now they all think the same way about girls n they only like certain stereotypes.

Now, girls, they arent real men. They’r just a bunch of robots n rubbish without their own minds n style. We girls oughtta be who we want. We dont need to conform cuz of all that pressure to be married n shit. Cuz we’d be fakers too. We’d be the same shallow ppl those men are. We don’t want that, do we??

Call me a feminist. I’m not gonna argue that I’m not. I’m "sexaycrazy". N bein sexay, thatz hard cuz it isnt just about the looks. It’s so much more than that.

Girls, dont be intimidated by others who are thin n straight haird. We have to have that confidence n show them our style n soul. Cuz we know we’v got that originality.

Don’t put on makeup cuz you wanna impress some man. Do it cuz u like it. Let them see your natural beauty, the kind of beauty that’s difficult to appreciate cuz evil eyes cannot see past what’s superficial. Men who can see past it are rare but girls, if you find a fine gentleman lyk dat, hold on to him with your Love.

Gw hr ini ga skolah…. Hehehhehehe… Rada males jg. N it isnt time well spent actually. Cuz we were just lazin around n doin some crazy shit. We playd DDR on PS2 using both the stick n the dance mat at the same time. It was awesome. N we did lil catwalks n dancd lyk crazy n didnt sleep till lyk 3.30.

I need to wake up frm my reverie… Seriously. I’m worried but my body doesnt wanna do anything about it. Dammit.

How now brown cow??

I gotta get home soon. Cuz I know my mom wants me to be there. I saw pictures of her insides. N all the infection n stuff. Damn gross!!!

I’ll let u see it if you want…

I had the strangest dream last night/morning (Me n Angel, Ci Nad2 n Rayna were playin DDR n singing till 3.30). The part I remember vividly is me holding hands wit Kevin aka Gin. We were lyk in some kind of sephia colord park wit Angel n Jul, Ci Nad2, Rayna, Rusdi etc) I was lyk WTH when I woke up. No feelings involved but just makes me feel weird.

Crap I wanna write something ’bout what the 4 of us did last night but I can’t. Call me if u wanna know. It’s hella interesting. I gotta always keep in mind that this is a public blog. Damnnnnnn… Cuz some ppl are good at turning honesty into shit.

My mom’s fine now. She was cravin for strawberries. LMAO Then she calld my dad in Indo n askd "Do we have strawberries in the house in Indo??" ROTFLMAO

Oh n I was playin DDR on Angel’s PS for hours. I finally found the song Break Down. Damnnnn brings back memories n Bridget n Jeff in New Jersey.

T.T I really miss them, n evrything else there.

My mom was admitted to the hospital cuz she’s got to do some operation thingy. She’s fine now. I feel kindda bad for not visiting her. But I took care of her the night before, accompanied her to the doctor n I’m gonna go pick her up n take care of the paperwork tmrw morning. Is this ok??

Prelim results: I passd evrything, did extremely well for Science n E Mathz n faild A Mathz… Well what can I say. Serves me right for bein lazy. LMAO

I feel kindda emo today. Partly cuz of my results. But I tell myself I’m okay. I need to be strong for my friends. Another reason’s cuz I can’t get what I want. Specially in certain areas in life. I think I give in too easily. I’ve been loving n generous but it doesnt seem to be appreciated. Sigh. I’m just tired.